Surviving 2020 & covid

How Anxiety can impact your career

I found a great article here that discusses how anxiety impacts your career. The article in of itself is a great read it covers a pretty broad swath of issues. First let’s get to an excerpt from the article:

How anxiety impacts you at work

As well as affecting your physical and mental health, anxiety can also result in a decline in your work performance. According to Street, the most common signs that you may be struggling to manage your anxiety in the workplace include the following:

🔹 Difficulty making decisions.

🔹 Poorer relationships at work due to mood changes (eg irritability, tearfulness, agitation) and behavior changes.

🔹 Procrastination and inefficiency when completing tasks.

🔹 Increased absenteeism due to recurring physical symptoms (for example, upset stomach, headaches).

🔹 Ongoing feelings of dread about deadlines or specific work tasks and worrying about these in your free time, when away from the workplace.

I have been both an employee and an employer/manager in my career. I can tell you that absenteeism was one of the worst issues I faced as a manager. There are laws that govern what you can and cannot say to an employee who has excessive absenteeism. The biggest issue for me was, the work still had to get done whether that person showed up or not. We got through it, but it always put a strain on the department.

That person ended up being resented by other staff who had to pick up their work. An unintended consequence of anxiety sadly. For me as a manager I had to get production out of my people, I always tried to temper that with as much understanding as I could muster. Often though, corporate demanded results, I had to push, it sucked. I’m not in management anymore, I miss the money but am much happier.

If anxiety is affecting your work place performance the best thing you can do is talk to your boss. It may be a challenging conversation but once you have it you relieve yourself of a tremendous burden. You see, what happens is, your boss and co workers have to speculate as to why you are out so often. 9 times out of 10, unless we know you well, we are way off. By letting you boss know you have an issue, you empower them, you relieve yourself, but you also invoke whatever coverage you have under your company’s personnel policy.

Mental illness/anxiety isn’t often specifically covered by policies, but chances are there is something in there. When you let your boss know, you provide them and yourself coverage. Otherwise, as in my example, I had to get the work out of other people. Had I had a clear picture what was going on, I would have a reason for department performance (not an EXCUSE a REASON). Your employer isn’t your enemy, they need you for whatever it is you are producing for them. If you can do it, make sure they know what is going on, it will help your career in the long run.

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A mistake is not an excuse to quit

Everyone makes them some are of course larger than others but mistakes happen. As an aside if you ever want MORE attention nothing beats a good mistake J kidding aside here mistakes can be soul crushing. I bet if you took a moment to reflect on your life you could probably pick out 3-4 large mistakes that really resonate with you.

Making a mistake can have life changing consequences. We can all extrapolate out what that means but what is often very hard to do, in the midst of the mistakes aftermath is see beyond impact. Days turn to weeks, weeks to months, and months to years. Making a mistake is not an excuse to quit. You are not perfect and by no means does anyone hold you to that standard.

The most important thing you can do is understand why the mistake happened and work to fix it so it doesn’t happen again. It’s easy to give up, to quit and this absolves you from ever addressing the issue. Some mistakes are so severe the damage cannot be undone. You cannot recover, or rather you cannot go back to where you were before the mistake.

Some mistakes are very small and are fixable. You are going to make all of them, small, medium and large. How you cope with and deal with your mistakes is paramount. Take responsibility, yes that actually means saying aloud to whomever “I take responsibility”. Listen to what affected people say, work to fix what you can.

When you have gone as far as you can fixing a mistake you have to move on. Sometimes this is the hardest part as some people will not let it go. Sometimes those affected want their pound of flesh, tenfold. You can’t quit, you can’t give in to the horrible emotional consequences of making a mistake. Otherwise it will consume you and it will define you.

Don’t do it, a mistake is not an excuse to quit.

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Anxiety Sucks Vol XIII. – *Massive Dramatic Sigh*

So, for those of you who have been reading my blog for a while you know the “Anxiety Sucks” series are my personal stories where my anxiety flares up. Like many of you the flare ups happen randomly and each one has a variable degree to it. This one isn’t so bad but its just one of those things in life I really detest.

So today we have “the Administrative Team Holiday Luncheon” at work. Yes, they do this in January as many people are out of the office during around thanksgiving and Christmas. I always hate these events because I have to go, and they are massive wastes of time. Its literally sitting around a table watching people shovel food into their mouths. Some of these people are absolutely disgusting too, I can’t bear the thought of actually having to watch them chew food and talk.

Its going to take every measure of resolve I have not to try and shove a stapler into their pie holes to shut them up. Then of course will come the “aren’t you going to have something?” well no I think I’ll pass on the tray of sandwich meat you laid out. You know I’m not keen on digesting meat that you’ve breathed all over but thanks so much for the offer…

The worst part is the politicking, the brown nosers will brown nose, the miserable will sit with sour pusses on their face… you know the drill. You normally have to go to a tractor pull or a landfill to have this scintillating of a conversation. Exaggerate you say? Ya maybe but I fucking hate these people. I know that’s extreme, but I really don’t like working, and the people I am surrounded with do not have my interest at heart. Meaning I am a produce of a commodity they need to do their job, so I am tolerated.

I mean at the end of the day when I think of the 5-10 people in the world whom I care the most about none of them work here. Of course, I will smile through the whole ordeal, I will play my part, I will be a good soldier and that’s what kills me the most. I don’t have the courage to say “fuck all of you” I need the income, I really need the health insurance. So, this is one of the “hoops” I have to jump through to get through my day.

The worse part is they do these god dam meetings once a month under different guises. It’s a networking opportunity which I don’t need, and a way for management to keep the peons in line. Feed em, give away a few gift cards and then send them back to the meat grinder with a smile. Ya I’m cynical, I earned it through years of working for pissants and less then spectacular people.

I know this has come off angry, its me venting. To be honest I’m just anxious, I don’t like these events. I don’t like being front and center and I don’t like most of the people involved. The saving grace to all this is I know I’m not alone. I know other people hate it, but they play the game just like I do. I don’t know, there are worse things in life I suppose, it just feels like a little part of my soul dies every time I have to fraudulently act like I give a shit.

I’ll take my Oscar now please…

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Anxiety Sucks Vol XII. – SNAP!

I could snap.

I know many of you have probably felt this way in your life, god knows I have. I am pretty far down the road now of dealing with anxiety and stress. For those of you who might be reading for the first time my “Anxiety Sucks” volumes are my personal stories about my battles with Anxiety and Depression.

Some of my files at work were deleted. It’s really that simple. The IT department ran some updates etc. (whatever the hell they do) and I get back in Monday morning and several documents from the cloud are gone. I issue a ticket and that’s when the game starts. If you work in 2019 in an office, you realize nothing is ever anyone’s fault. There is no “blame” anymore. You know like in kids sports now, there are no losers, there is no second-place yadda yadda.

Fuck that, someone screwed up. I want their head on a pike is my first instinct. One of those documents was 3 months’ worth of work it was critical. Back up? Well doesn’t IT back everything up? Isn’t that why we have these god dam clouds? So, the emails start “Are you sure those files were up to date, and you saved them correctly”. This is what I call the foundation statements. These are the opening salvos in the blame game, which there is never anyone who actually gets blamed but we all still play it.

Sentences like this are levied to create doubt so as to temper fall out. An omission that “ya sorry, I screwed up” is not in the cards apparently. “You mean did I click the save icon when finish documents for the last 3 months? Ya I did that” was my return salvo. Meantime the end of the year approaches, there are some key things I need to do and report on PRIOR to 12/31/19. For those of you who don’t know, I am a finance professional currently working at a law firm doing numerous functions.

It’s a decent job, I touch a lot of things, it pays the bills.

“Well we will open a ticket with Microsoft to try and retrieve the data”. I know from experience that’s the kiss of death, meaning these IT people don’t know what happened, or do but can’t fix it. So, I am left waiting for them to come back and give me the bull shit excuse as to why my documents are missing. The funniest part is going to be when they weave the narrative to somehow suggest it was something I did.

This is the shit that makes me want to snap. I don’t normal swear or get angry but at this time of the year I become very susceptible to mood swings. I mean are my expectations to high? Shouldn’t I expect to have my files not deleted? I mean WTF…. So, this has flavored my mood and day for the last 48 hours. I’m sitting in bed last night thinking about it, I got to work early to see if the files were fixed. Christmas is next week, and I have a whole slew of family stuff to deal with.

Meh.

Surviving 2020 & covid

How Anxiety can impact your career

I found a great article here that discusses how anxiety impacts your career. The article in of itself is a great read it covers a pretty broad swath of issues. First let’s get to an excerpt from the article:

How anxiety impacts you at work

As well as affecting your physical and mental health, anxiety can also result in a decline in your work performance. According to Street, the most common signs that you may be struggling to manage your anxiety in the workplace include the following:

🔹 Difficulty making decisions.

🔹 Poorer relationships at work due to mood changes (eg irritability, tearfulness, agitation) and behavior changes.

🔹 Procrastination and inefficiency when completing tasks.

🔹 Increased absenteeism due to recurring physical symptoms (for example, upset stomach, headaches).

🔹 Ongoing feelings of dread about deadlines or specific work tasks and worrying about these in your free time, when away from the workplace.

I have been both an employee and an employer/manager in my career. I can tell you that absenteeism was one of the worst issues I faced as a manager. There are laws that govern what you can and cannot say to an employee who has excessive absenteeism. The biggest issue for me was, the work still had to get done whether that person showed up or not. We got through it, but it always put a strain on the department.

That person ended up being resented by other staff who had to pick up their work. An unintended consequence of anxiety sadly. For me as a manager I had to get production out of my people, I always tried to temper that with as much understanding as I could muster. Often though, corporate demanded results, I had to push, it sucked. I’m not in management anymore, I miss the money but am much happier.

If anxiety is affecting your work place performance the best thing you can do is talk to your boss. It may be a challenging conversation but once you have it you relieve yourself of a tremendous burden. You see, what happens is, your boss and co workers have to speculate as to why you are out so often. 9 times out of 10, unless we know you well, we are way off. By letting you boss know you have an issue, you empower them, you relieve yourself, but you also invoke whatever coverage you have under your company’s personnel policy.

Mental illness/anxiety isn’t often specifically covered by policies, but chances are there is something in there. When you let your boss know, you provide them and yourself coverage. Otherwise, as in my example, I had to get the work out of other people. Had I had a clear picture what was going on, I would have a reason for department performance (not an EXCUSE a REASON). Your employer isn’t your enemy, they need you for whatever it is you are producing for them. If you can do it, make sure they know what is going on, it will help your career in the long run.

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Work anxiety – What to do if you make a mistake.

This piece is going to be from personal experience, lol. I’ve been a manger of people and have been managed and in both capacities, I have made mistakes, a few doozies too. Work is stressful, there are so many competing emotions that go into work these days. People that don’t experience it are either numb or blessed. You have competition, backstabbing, gossip, accolades, rewards, bonuses to name a few. Each one of these and including several others (a demanding boss) can inspire anxiety.

What happens if you screw up? If you make a mistake and you know it before everyone else, what do you do? Quick story: many, many years ago (yes, I am ancient) I had to cut a check to a client for over 300K I put the check in the printer upside down, it looked correct but the vital part on the back was on the stub, not the check part. I got it back signed stuffed it in an envelope and mailed it. I realized later what I had done. I panicked I didn’t say anything to anyone, the client called me, he was unhappy, very unhappy.

I had 3 days of anxiety over that mistake. I survived, but what could I have done differently? If you make a mistake at work, you are not alone. Perfection is the bane of very good, but that doesn’t matter right? If you have anxiety you are going to beat yourself up over it. Here are 5 things you should do if you make a mistake at work to alieve your anxiety:

  1. Take responsibility: Let your boss know and the affected parties know. Apologize and make sure they know you will work to fix the issue.
  2. Fix what you can: This intertwines with the above but fix what you can. Some issues, you can’t fix but be available for the fix. Bottom line, if you make a mistake and can fix it, fix it, even if it means you work late.
  3. Make it a learning moment: Cliché? Maybe but you made this mistake for a reason. Learn what you did wrong, and make sure you implement the requisite changes so that it doesn’t happen again.
  4. Forgive yourself: Everyone makes mistakes, but at this moment your up. You must make sure you forgive yourself for making a mistake, everyone makes them. If you beat yourself up too much you might cause harm to your future job performance.
  5. Get back to work: Don’t be tentative. Do your job, build your confidence back up.

Making a mistake at work sucks, it happens all the time. You will recover, you will move on and you will be successful. Own it, manage it and learn from it. You are doing awesome, one day at a time.